this is the first time writing, but I have talked to you just by looking up.
I'm asking you for the biggest thing ever. I hurt the women I truly deeply love and care about with all my heart. I did something I broke her trust and love for me. Its getting harder and harder. Not to lose it even more I dont know what to do anymore. I dont want to lose her I want to show her that I will change I will be a different man she wants me to be. I know time May make things better. But I would like a little help from you. I just want her back to loving me a just a little bit ight now. But I dont want her to go. I have all ways been scared of losing her from day one, because it sim to be in my eyes she is amazing women, has to much to give a man and give to someone heart. And I guess it took me hurting her and to hurt myself to 110% see that I dont have anything to be scared of with her. She has done nothing wrong, she has had my back all the way. But the feeling has all ways been in the back of my mind that this is to good to be true. She to perfect for me. I never decided this much, I'm the guy that doesn't get this lucky in relationships at all. I dont get girls like her at all. Not even close. So yes I get very jealous some times, yes I get myself a steam issue to come out, then the biggest is my insecure with myself. That's the biggest thing, is she is amazing super beautiful, and she has all ways been a little to good for me or even a little to much for me to love her the right way.
all because I dont deserve someone like her, I dont deserver that kinda of love, I guess its because I have never know what true love looks like, or what real love looks like.
its apart of me that has all ways been everyone else deserve better them I do. I have never been able to make anything work out at all. Not jobs, relationships, friendships, nothing because sooner or later. I push them all away. I hurt too many people no matter what or no matter how long it last. I still end it one way or other.
she has given me so much that I should have seen it and should have let her love me in her own way and not try to get anything different at all. God please how me get violet May back to me back to I can show her that I dont wait her to leave I dont want her to let go. I will not stop from running after her. To try and found that love again.
from brandon herman
p. S. God please help me get her back help me please. I dont think I understand what I we lose I dont think I knew what the end would look like, because I wont be the only one that loses, I wont be the only one that hurts, if I cant find away to get her to come back and love me, and to get her to see that I deeply 110% would do anything for her for the rest of my life.
March 17, 2019, 10:14 pm