Lost my dad in the war (mia) and mom remarried. The man she married raped my 8 year old sister. All mom could do was cried. We started seeing less and less of mom and him, but when we did, he would grap and fondle my sister every chance he had. My grandmom would take care of us and she knew what was happening.
soon mom started having children by her new husband and we became less and less important in their lives. I was the oldest, year and half older then my abused sister. We had a younger sister.
I left home at 17 and joined the air force. My sister got pregnant and ended up marrying a guy who was not the father. They are still married and I love my brother in law alot for turning out to be a man. My younger sister also married young and only lately have gotten divorced.
I don't visit my mom and her husband. But when I am around you can feel the tension in the air. He knows taht I know and I know that he knows that I know. I haven't killed the sob because I have strong feelings for the childern he begot.
even now Lord, my mom and her husband still do less for us than for their own children. For example, a while back one of their sons, who was their favorite (my half brother) got killed in a vehicle accident, and even thou my mom never said it in front of us (me and my sisters) she wished that I had been the one in the accident.
I could go on and on Lord and tell of the sad lives we have had and the secret that has been kept under cover for so long. At times Lord I want to turn him in, but my sister, who is a so called born again" Christian, whatever that is, (I'm catholic and when we are baptized, we are born again) will not let me. She claims to have forgiven him. Me, I have hatred in my soul and heart for both of them. And even thou I tried to forgive them, I seem to always drift back to what was done and catch myself hating and not forgeting.
Lord, I know you are justice, peace, love and many other good things. How can I find justice, peace and love again. I too am married, but have been seperated for over twenty years. Do not know if we will ever be re-united.
and even thou I have an mba, I find myself many times looking for employement and many times not finding any. Lord, do I and my sisters matter to you? How can I know if you really hear your creation?
your adopted son thru Christ"