God. Ive been wrong, I deserve death. Help me stay free, ive tried, it just seems I never try hard enough. When I do good I dont do good enough, when I do bad I do really bad. I'm probuably going to be locked up for a long time, I can take it. Well I have to, but I have to drop out of college, quit my jobs, and stop playing my music that I love. Hear me God, I hate my situation. I love life but this isnt life. Please listen, you are the only one who can help me. I moreso deserve what I get for my crimes. Help this 19 year old felon from getting another one, jail and prison isnt for me. I feel traped in the rut of pain and strugle. Help, I want college, work, and most of all freedom. I'm gona do so much good, but how can I do it in prison? You know what I need and im scared b/c I know youll give it to me. Shed mercy, not wrath please im scared of you. I dont know what to do, help, ill try to live for you, just help me want to, urge to long to, plant me in good soil, allow my roots to grow strong and deep, and my vines protected from the parasite. I can do it free, but if it is your will for me in prison ill do it there too, im just scared. I feel hopeless, I whish youd take me, but that obviosly isnt your will, abide your will in and threw me. In Jesus name I ask this amen.