God Particle 72
dear holiness and savior of all
it's me, your servant, named myself God's particle 72
i've been so far away from you for so long, I did many sins, I had lust, I ate and drunk so much, I had homosexual thoughts about my friends and others, I was jelous, I had worshipped money, I disrespected people, I mistreated my parents and friends, I have refused to help people, I became angry in vain things, I had lost belief in you, when I should have asked you for help, I have been really lazy in my tasks, I was proud for things that you can take them, and they don't belong to me.
I lied, stole and worked against your will, and lost your plan for me.
I'm so ashamed, you have given me everything I needed, as I always asked for that, and I was not grateful for that. And I'm so grateful for my food, family, talents, joy, wisdom, and my whole existence.
today, I need you more than always, I need our shop to stay open, and it's only possible by your hands, as everything else is. My Lord, please help us to get the verification tomorrow, something that we can rely on.
I promise to be a better person, a helper to people. I promise i'll be nicer to my friends and family. I won't plan anything evil, i'll be honest, I won't try to gain people that is wrong and they don't belong to me. I'll work more, and waste less time and money. I'll restore my faith on you the holiest and the power. I won't drink alcohol, smoke cigarette and cigars and eat things that are harmful to my body, the body that you have lend to me. I'll try to have better habits, and forget and forgive other's deeds, as you do to me. I promise i'll do what Bible says I should do, and i'll clear my soul from bad things. I won't have greed, and envy, i'll try my best to love others and live a life yu want me to live.
please help me, I desperately need it. And I won't be ungrateful for that.
do as you thing is the best by considering my hopes and wishe's.
don't let me to go down more and sink. Take my hand, as you are the only safe and peaceful place, the glory, the alpha and omega of everything
I love you so much and I'm thankful for you to be here
April 20, 2019, 7:01 am