Seeking Answers

hemendra      
Saturday February 4, 2012

Dear God, God, I want to tell, ask and share some things with you. You know them already but still i want to do. God, I have been in confusion since long time.I am not able to understand me. I find myself being ugly. I dont want to do some things but i end up doing it. I know, i am not a good boy but i want to be one. I find every thing ugly in me. i dont know any thing. Just lost I am. I feel as if i am not able to hear you. I am not able to identify your voice. I dont know how things will become fine :'( some times i feel that my life is over. i dont feel the essance of life. I know that i am going wrong but there is no miracle to make things better.But i dont want to be called coward. I dont know what to do..... i am sorry god, to be a failure :(

courty      
Thursday February 2, 2012

DEAR GOD, I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. FIRST LET ME SAY THANK YOU FOR WAKING ME UP THIS MORNING AND ALLOWING ME TO SEE THE LIGHT OF ANOTHER DAY. THE PAST THREE DAYS HAVE BEEN VERY ROUGH. I'VE BEEN TRYING TO PROVE TO YOU THAT YOU ARE HEAD OF MY LIFE AND NUMBER ONE IN MY LIFE AND I'VE BEEN IGNORING MY GIRLFRIEND OF ALMOST FIVE YEARS TO PROVE THIS TO YOU. IT'S HARD BECAUSE I LOVE THIS GIRL, BUT I KNOW I NEED TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I LOVE YOU MORE. SHE'S HURT ME BEFORE, SHE'S LIED TO ME, SHE'S CHEATED ON ME AND YOU'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING BUT BLESS ME ABUNDANTLY. IT MAKES NO SENSE FOR ME TO PUT HER BEFORE YOU IN MY LIFE. I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT OF SPRIPTURE READING, A LOT OF PRAYING, AND JUST MEDITATING. THIS IS BY FAR THE HARDEST THING THAT I'VE EVER HAD TO DO. I'VE TALKED TO MY GIRLFRIEND ALMOST EVERYDAY FOR THE PAST FIVE YEARS, BUT I CAN'T CONTINUE TO ALLOW MYSELF TO PUT HER BEFORE YOU. I DON'T KNOW WHEN YOU'LL DECIDE THE TIME IS RIGHT FOR ME TO TALK TO HER. I MISS HER VERY MUCH, BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR MYSELF AND FOR YOU. PLEASE GOD, GRANT ME THE PATIENCE I NEED TO WORK THIS THROUGH. I KNOW THAT THIS IS A TEST, THIS IS TEMPORARY, THIS WILL PASS. I PRAY THAT THIS MAKES MY RELATIONSHIP AND BOND WITH YOU STRONGER THAN EVER BEFORE, AND WHEN YOU DECIDE THE TIME IS RIGHT I CAN SORT THINGS OUT WITH MY GIRLFRIEND AND I CAN LOVE HER IN A WAY THAT A PASTOR LOVES HIS WIFE, AND BY NOT PUTTING HER BEFORE YOU. THE DAYS ARE LONG AND THE NIGHTS ARE ROUGH. I KNOW YOU FEEL MY PAIN LORD, BUT I ALSO KNOW YOU WOULDN'T PUT MORE ON ME THAN I CAN HANDLE. MY HEART IS READY LORD. MY HEART IS READY FOR YOU TO COME IN AND CLEANSE. I MUST CONTINUE TO FIGHT THIS BATTLE. I HAVE TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I CAN DO THIS FOR YOU, NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS, NO MATTER HOW HURT SHE IS BY ME IGNORING HER, NO MATTER HOW MUCH I MISS HER. I TRUST IN YOU LORD, THAT YOU WILL MAKE THINGS RIGHT AFTER THIS AND EVERYTHING WILL FALL TOGETHER. LET YOUR WILL BE DONE GOD. I'M SO THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME LORD. CONTINUE TO GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON WITH THIS UNTIL YOU TELL ME THE TIME IS RIGHT. I PRAY IN YOUR SON JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.

Kenna      
Tuesday January 31, 2012

Dear god, the boy i was praying for constintly, i know you heard me. or at least i think you did. Why did you let him start drinking, i wanted you to help him stay strong.He is better then people think he is. He isn't a boy who cares less about everything. I know he can be successful he just needs to try. Please...Help. Why did you let him do that.

R.A....      
Friday January 27, 2012

Dear God, I have always trusted you to my fullest. I submit my will to your will. She is not talking to me. She left talking to me totally. She does not even look at me while she is always around me. I know of no no reason why she cut off from me. Perhaps making and breaking too close relations is very easy for some of your creation. It disturbs a lot. I have a sort of pain in heart day and night. Anyways, I am sure it is you who did it for my good. I am sure this is better for me. All I want to say is "Please give me satisfaction in what you give me, do to me and what you do for me". Your Sincere Servant R.A....

NAG      
Thursday January 26, 2012

Dear lord, i am getting so fed up with this. he treats me so bad and I keep running back to him...why cant you help me be strong? Why dont you ever punish hime, why cant you turn the tables at least once.Are you even there? Do you even hear my pleas? You say ask and thy shall receive...receive what...hurt and pain??? Are you even there? Am i praying to no one daily? Im tired of waiting around for you to answer me and show me that you are there, Im giving you till exaclty 13:00 to prove to me that you are there, give me a sign...if you cant then whats the use me believe in you Im fed up and I feel like I had enough...

Please God      
Tuesday January 24, 2012

hear my prayer from heaven on high. I do believe that you will. I do not know what will be next concerning my husband. I am at the point of not even wanting to be associated with him at all. You know this. You also know the terrible things that my family has done to me. I pray that you would somehow help them and him too. Oh Lord Father can you make this terrible anger go away please. Jesus I love you and trust you amen

Cody S      
Sunday January 22, 2012

Dear God, i just want to give thanks to you for everything you have given me. Its been 2 1/2 months now that i have moved out of moms house. You and I both know that mom and I's journey together has not been easy. My biological father wasnt there on the day i was born then when i was 5 you decided it was time for my grandpa to leave us...then when i was 9 or 10 you then decided to take away my grandma. But the whole time i grew up without a father. Being such a little boy having no prime example around was tough. But i have always had high hopes and always have had the wishes and dreams for you to allow me one day to become a father. To where i KNOW i can be a good father to my son or daughter that you allow me to have. I know i havent always been perfect and i know im not perfect now. I still make bad choices in my life. But i just want to say thanks for speaking to my dad 2 or 3 years ago for allowing him to come back into my life. Ever since then we have bonded. But then it will never make up for the 10 years i never saw him. But i think i have done well growing up. But as i turned 18 back in August. Life has threw me alot of curve balls. I then decided to move out. Which yes its not easy but i dont say its hard either. But thank you for all the support you have given me. From letting cesar open up his doors to me and allowing such CHEAP rent. To allowing other people that i dont even know telling me i have a place to stay if need be. I have high goals...wishes...and dreams that i hope i can reach. I want to walk with you lord everyday of my life and i know weather it does or dont feel like it....that you are there watching my every move. From this letter on i promise you lord that i am going to work on my reactions to others....watch my temper...and watch the words out of my mouth. I hope one day that i can have a church home again. But i also pray lord that no matter how much fighting or madness lindsay and i make of our selves that you help us and allow us to be that very special couple that i hope we are meant to be. I want her to be my best friend....the person i can cry on if neeed be or the other way around as well. I just hope and pray you let the Shew family be the Family i take role into being. You have allowed them to support me in every direction and i want to continue to be loved and supported by them. I just want to ask for forgiveness lord as i have done wrong in the past. I just ask u help me get through each and every day...and i promise i will start coming to you for support and just to talk to. You are everything to me lord. But i will honor you and talk about you and hope that you will be there to help me when time comes. I just pray for forest that he gets a house soon as thats another challange i am about to come across. but i also ask that you let me find a good higher paying job. to where i dont work as much to where i can focus on school and spend time with the family. But i also ask lord you help repair the relationship between my mother and I help her understand that she needs to let go and to let me grow up and to stop playing games. One last thing....i just ask you help me...talk to me...and guideme into the right career Biomedical... haha or is it going to be law enforcement....im thinking law enforcement but help me decide lord....i love you so much yours forever Cody

aqua lady      
Sunday January 22, 2012

hey, Long time no talk, thank you for everything. I found my peace, thanks for sending it to me. U said, lets rephrase, that I have nothing to do with his past,which was his past and now his present. He does not owe me anything. I don't owe him anything. I needed to stop fretting over it.I did, funny u made me say it with my own mouth. However, how is it that u chose to send me a message in this form, this is new to me. I guessing, u are about to send me many new methods of communicating with you and spirit guides.How is it that the message came so late. Moreover, u told me, in fact emphasized that it all happens for a reason. Then, u told me that when i was abt to lose hope, u send me a message that this dude will not bail on me. How is it that I am not being communicated with through dreams. Why is it that my dreams are un clear, do i need meditation?My question now is guide me to the grad skool i need to go to divinely.Where am i meant to go?Tell daddy i love him, kisses love urs aqua lady