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Tuesday December 3, 2013
Please Lord, take this burden and agony away from me. Please take this yolk. Please hang it on the cross where Jesus died so that my hopes and joy can be resurrected as he was. Lord please allow me to be able to stay at this high school that I love with the teachers you blessed me with and the best friend you sent to me like an angel to darkness and the boyfriend you gave to me who changed my life. Lord please do not allow me to lose those things. Please do not let my delusional, abusive father take them from me. Please let him have made up his mind to leave us so that I may keep hold of the things that give me joy. If even a part of him is still Your servant, Lord, please give him the divine message to leave our lives rather than further ruin them. Lord please do not strip me of the blessings I have already listed and those I haven't (like color guard) like you stripped your servant Job of his blessings and possessions. Lord, please, when tomorrow's day dawns let it also be a new dawn in my life rather than the ultimate destruction. Lord, not my will but Thine. Not my will but if I may I plead that I and my momma and my little brother and my little sister will not have to endure this daunting tribulation. Please let this evil pass from our lives and our household because I cannot endure it. I cannot bear the burden that faces me.
Lord if this is your will and I must endure being ripped away from all that I have come to love, please lend me even a portion of your strength that I can make the transition from this chapter of my life to the next. Lord, I am just a fourteen year old girl and I do not know how to scale this kind of mountain, it hurts to even look at it. Lord please take this away and let my evil father leave our lives tomorrow rather than the worst coming true. Lord not my will but Thine. I love you Lord, please strengthen that love that I may endure whatever comes my way. Lord please do not bring this distress upon my young siblings who have come to love their friends and their school and this house. Lord, I beg that you take this burden off of our shoulders. Please, Lord.
In Your Son's name,
Sunday December 1, 2013
Help me god please..
U help me every time..
But I neet ur help this time vey much..not fealing good :-(
hopes slowly fading away
Tuesday November 26, 2013
hope you. having a good day sire. just wanna let you know now even the hope is slowly fading away. f1.
Monday November 25, 2013
Thank you for every thing you have granted me without any effort, even so many things i don't deserve to have, thank you to give me shelter, food, loving ones, and respect besides all my evil deeds, Please always help me in my difficult and easy times i am nothing without your help, You better know all the things better than every one. Plz forgive me, forgive me, forgive me, bless on all peoples who are in troubles.
I trust in you Allah.
Monday November 25, 2013
Its a test of my patience my love my faith and my hope nd trust in YOU . Please stop hurting me GOD . I dont have much strength left in me to take in so much of pain .I almost lost him again and this time it was not my mistake. What is happening to him GOD I really am worried the way he is acting .I hope its the transformation phase for he is going through a lot of pain and heart break too and I know the reason. Let me help me let me heal him and ease his pain GOD for I Love him a lot and I cannot see him like this and I cannot at any cost lose him this time,Last time I had to visit hell and return .I dont ever want to feel the same never . I wish it doesnt happen wwith any one . To be away and not talking to him is more than HELL and DEATH . Please GOD i beg of you please dont let anything go wrong this time and please change his mind cleanse his heart body mind and soul.whatever happened is a past now im ready to just forgive nd forget it .All i ask you is please gimme my love back who would marry me and have a lovely life ahead.please GOD tel him that il die without him and my happiness my world is none other than him .please god i cannot bear the pain of being away from him i really wish for things to be normal between us and i want to be with him forever. please end all those miseries in our lives and bless us with a little happiness GOD.Plsssssssssssss bring him back into my life and he should love me nd marry me asap.
Monday November 25, 2013
Dear God I'm thankful you gave me another day to live but as your child I feel so empty and lonely it's like every time I get a shot of love it always disappear and leave me with nothing I had been this guy for 3months and things were find until here just left me for no reason at all I mean why can I find good guy that lives me and will do anything for me God can u help me please....
Friday November 22, 2013
As You know, I've been looking for a job ever since graduation- even before then. 11 months later, here I still am. That 2 month job I had was terrible and You know how unhappy I was there- but... right now there's nothing else.
Everyone seems to be getting calls for that position with the hospital I interviewed for. And God, You know how much I practiced. You know that in nursing school, I tried my best to succeed, and I did well on tests and didn't cheat. I completed all my extern hours, and never left early. Friends are getting jobs and they were dishonest, they didn't even go to their externships! Why is it so hard for me to get a job? I'm a kind person, I try to do the right thing. I've been praying for this since forever! I finally had a shot at a hospital job, and now... it's like time passing by and more graduates pass the NCLEX, and I'm still here trying to get a real decent job.
Please God, didn't St. Joseph work? Didn't Jesus work too? Even Mama Mary? Why has it been so hard for me. I feel like I can't wait any longer. It feels like my soul has been stagnant and it's been raining for 11 months straight. I don't know what to do anymore, God. Where are You? :(
siraj s. raheem
Monday November 18, 2013
Oh whats up god i cant live with my parents i am sitting here going nuts because my mother pretends like im dead and not there...
Saturday November 16, 2013
Also, I want to talk about one of my friend, she hurts me with everything she said, everything she did. I mean, what did i do wrong to her? i'm not even close with her. But she acts like she knows me and make judgement about me. A few are true, but mostly not. She talked to my face that i'm an annoying and not fun person to her because i'm so serious. I was like, "what?". But i didn't say a word. I just smiled and said "hehe, really?" but deep down it hurts. a lot.
I don't really talk to her, I kept silence because i was really hurt. she didnt even know me. and it's not that i'm soo serious and not fun, i'm just quiet, shy, and don't really blend with new people. that's the nature of me. i'm quiet. and is that a mistake? is that wrong?
i can feel that she doesn't like me, she laughes at me, she said hurtful comments. but i never reply back. i usually will reply back if someone say hurtful things. but this time with her i didnt. i was hurt so so bad with everything she did and said to me in front of my friends. she's so beautiful, smart, rich, but how could she be that cruel?
what did i do wrong?
I've never been this hurt by someone's attitude and words. But i swear this time it hurts so bad.
a few weeks passed and i still don't forget. but she's a perfect ten girl. she's my friend. i wish her the best. i sincerely wish.
but could you do me a favor? please God, could you please avoid me from that kind of person in the future?
i beg you. i dont hate her, but i wish to be far away from her. she hurt me mentally, and it's really painful.
Saturday November 16, 2013
God sir I am sorry for my mistake..thank u for helping me everytime..give me my way ,my dream sir..thanx..keep bless all of us.