no name sender     Sunday October 26, 2008

Dear Father, It's me again..the Blood of Jesus is over my house, my husband, my pets. My family, my parents, my nieces and nephews...we are blessing to our friends and families, co workers, neighbors and the world. When I raise my hand to someone they are blessed, I will give and give and give Father...like Jabez increase my sales territory...I'm ready. love me.

no name sender     Sunday October 26, 2008

Dear Father, I stand on Your word..You are the one true God. You are merciful..You are the Almighty God, The Creator, the beginning and the end. FAther, I am storming the throne, You are a Big God and I am praying BIG, hear me Father. My words are pleasing to your ears..I am your righteous daughter my words come to pass as your words come to pass. My Lord Jesus is my beloved..I am part of You and You are of me. I love you, I surrender my life to You, take hold of my life and do what you want with me. How can I serve You Father. What is it that You want me to do. You rescue me over and over and over again. You are so awesome and tremendous. You give me peace. You made me strong for a reason. I will pray hard Father. I will be incessant. Holy Spirit, grab hold of this world...today right now, children are being rescued, right now, children all over this world in every village, town, city, home, farm, shelter, enjoys a nutritious delightful meal, they have clean close to wear, they are sheltered and protected in the Holy and Glorious Name of Jesus...no weapon formed against a child can prosper, not words, not deeds. Oh Father You Hear me...the world is not too big for you....you created the universe...we're little but You made uS Big...we are the apple of your eye....every child is safe..children are getting a good prognosis...they thought it was over..too late...BUT NOT FOR THE ALMIGHTY GOD...STEP IN CHANGE IT AROUND...people are being healed of leukemia, cancer, blindness, deafness, austisms, mental illnsess, acne, multiple sclerosis, heart disease, liver disease...around this world....tomorrow we awake and we've had 1 billion miracles...bless those who are blessed so they can continue to be a blessing to others. Bless the elderly, soothe their loneliness, make them whole, healed, and vibrant. Father I'm going to keep praying BIG...my words come to pass...you spoke and the universe was created. I love you Father, My Lord Jesus..my love. love me

jennifer     Sunday October 26, 2008

Dear God, I want to thank you for all that you have done for me. I just want to praise you for your love and protection. Lord I ask that you will bless my hands that money will come from the east, west, north, and south. I pray that you will restore unto me all the good things the enemies have taking away from me. Lord I am seeking to get a pt job I ask that you will cancel evey plans and work of the enemies. Lord I ask that if it is your will for me to go on the day shift in the new year, let your will be done for me Lord. I ask that you will continue to bless me and enlarge my territory, that I will be able to bless those who are in need. Lord you said i am the head not the tail. I am above and not beneath, I am a lender and not a borrower, I am your child and I know you cares for me. open the doors, window, mountain, valley and all the good things that the enemies have put blockage to. please touch these hands right now that they will prosper in all that I put my hands to. I ask that I will never ever know the meaning of wants, or need, because you will supply all our needs. your word also said you are my shepherd and i shall not want. Lord I ask that you will help me to get my house updated the way i want it to be. Lord just the floring, the kitchen counter, the cubbards, and later on the a/c. Lord I ask for you to make financial provision for me to buy the materials and money to pay for labour. Lord you are a big God, and a prayer answering God. I ask that you will answer this letter and let me see your hands at work again, just like how you make provision for me to get the house, that the enemies cannot believe that the help is from you. please bless me that the enemies will know that who you blesses, now man can curse, and when your time has come no weapon that fashion against anything that belongs to us shall prosper. Thank you Lord for hearing me. Amen in Jesus Name.

Signe     Sunday October 26, 2008

Dear Lord, please tell me what's wrong with Me!! Teach me to be a better person - I hide from reality and than I eat, I really don't like my body as it is now. I'm absolutely not clear about how my life will be - I feel like a failure sometimes - its all a fussy cloud. But yesterday, I felt like living again, those few min. with my friend was enough to kinda open me up. It felt like all my demons was released - I don't understand why, they don't teach that in school?? Bless my friend for being there for me; learn me how to show my love to her, cos everytime she says "I love you" I just reply with "ditto" Bless that day, next year. You know. I can't believe I'm going!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I hope my soul is still here, and I'm not completely lost??.. but sometimes I just kinda wish, what I've been experience would all be physical, but than again I know, it just wouldn't be right. I love you. Always yours..

mike     Sunday October 26, 2008

Thanks for giving me cancer god. my lifes always been a joke. now this just proves it. you always said in your word ask and you shall recieve.well ive asked so many times. and i get nothing. that somes up my life as well. so thanks alot.but a little help would be nice God

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.......     Sunday October 26, 2008

App mujhay itna tough time detay hain k akhir main a ker main apna nuksaan ker leti hoon. App aisa kertay ja rahay hain or koi bhi nahi jo app se pooche k aisa hai tu kyun hai? Ya Allah app to lagta hai k mujhay paida ker k bhool gai hain? Aisa kia karon jise app kabool ker lain? Ye such hai kay aj main ne apna temper phir lose kia. Main nahi resist ker saki. Main ne na zeba ilfaaz ka istimaal kia. Main kahon gi k I'M A BITCH or lagay ga k shayd main ne confession ker lia hai. Magar abhi main aisa kuch nahi kerne wali. Mujhay koi confession nahi kerna. Mau app se bohat confession kiyay. Kabhi kabhi to sara din apne app ko kosa. Apne parents se bud tameezi ke to app se confession kia. App jantay hain na k aisi nobat kyun ati hai? App aisay haalat paida ker detay hain k akhir berdasht nahi hota or main or surroundings sub suffer kertay hain. Aj ka letter bohat lamba ho ga. Aj thuj gai hoon. Kabhi yahan ati hoon sochti hoon k ye kahon gi wo kahon gi magar page close ker k chali jati hoon. Aj to hud ho gai hai. Main aik week se aik confession kiyay ja rahi hoon. Main aik week se sub kuch berdasht kiyay ja rahi hoon. App hain k imtahaan liyay ja rahay hain? App ko maza ata hai bohat? Pata nahi app kia hain? App kyun aik sakhs ko dukh diyay jatay hain. App ki muslehat kis main kia hai ye shayad app bhi aksaar bhool jatay hain. Wada kerte hain. Bhool jatay hain. Achai kia hai is ka faisla app kertay hain, magar kerne walay ko phul dena bhool jatay hain. Baat simple hai. Main na kaam hoon. Chalo maan lia magar apne he is ka tana dain ye main berdasht nahi ker sakti or jawab main un ko main bhi mental torture kerti hoon. I know k ye ghalat hai magar aisa jaan boojh ker nahi hota. App ne agay is ke saza kia deni hai nahi maloom, magar aik baat agar meri jaga app hote to app bhi yahi kerte. Ya Allah ye kia hai? App ke duniya? App ne kyun banai? App ke duniya ajeeb hai. Bohat. App ke terhan. Main app ko jub bhi imagine kia hai frown k saath kia hai kyunk app ne mujhay hamesha ghusay se deal kia hai. Kher main baat to ye hai k aj her dafa ke terhaan aik umeed laga k bathi hoon or wo lagta hai her umeed ke terhan tootay gi. Ferk ye hai k is dafa main ne kafi dua ke hai app se. Kehtay hain app sun lete hain dua agar sache dil se karo? Main is dafa ye dekhna hai k kia ye such hai? Kyunk is dua ko main sache dil se manga hai. Detail main nahi jaon gi. Bus app jantay hain. I'm frustrated. App jante hain kyun. App sub jantay hain. I tried to avoid throwing tantrums but It ended up in smoke. Reasons: I'm in love with someone again, I got over 3 years back. I can't understand that why I had to love him again. Anyways... I don't regret it. Everybody does it. It's my right to. And ofcourse that job. "I need so badly" I prayed for this job from all my heart. I live that dream each day. Is se ziada kuch abhi nahi aham, I mean personally. Family k lia to bohat kuch mangti hoon. Agar mujhay ye job mil jai to main purfication k process se nikel sakti hoon. I will born again if I'll get that job. I swear. I can't save my soul from becoming demonic and amputated. I'm trying hard to be svaed, but I need your back too for this process. As, the task is hard. I think today I did stumble a bit, and I think , I am sorry. I was pissed at my life. And it's fair enough to lose temper in this condition. I think I need stability both in my relations and career, and they are lose and that's why I could n't hold on my patience today, because relations and career, both of them are very weak nowdays. And In a process of taking two boats at the sure we experience trauma and a little drama. Or aisa jaan boojh ker nahi hota ya ALLAH! Dekhain, life sub ko aik dafa milti hai. Mujay bhi aik dafa he mili hai. Kabhi kabhi sochti hoon k aisa bakwaas life jis main subah se le ker raat tak baykaari howi hai ka kia maksad? Maksad talash kia. Rozana. Himat ke. APni power se ziada. Zehni. Jismaani. But I faced failure. And then main aik insaan hoon. Kub tak aise he? Aik waqt aya ke mujhay haar manni pari. Bohaaaaaaaaaaaaat takleef main hoon. Apne parents se bohat piyaar hai ya Allah. Un ka agay aisay nahi bolna chahiti, magar meray bus main nahi!!! Takleef se to prphets bhi ghabra gai thy. Main to aik mere creature hoon. I hope k you'll see to it. Is terhan ke baykaar zindagi to app ne he decide ke hai. Please ab ye mat kehna k main koshish karon to.....kyunk....main koshish ke hai. Ke to hai! App ne he saath nahi dia. Us din jo howa? I'm scared. Bohat pain main hone k bawood main abhi bhi app se umeed lagai hoon. Pata nahi ab kia ho ga? Mera dil to her waqt he toota hai, adi hoon magar Ya Allah derd her dafa hota hai jis terhan pehli baar howa thah. Berdasht nahi hota. Roz ke rejection or disappointment ke waja se main ne apni personality spoil ker de hai. App is dafa to success grant karain gai na? I'm waiting. I'm anticipating so much this time, werna meri lia light or darkness aik jaisi ho jai gi. I'm asking this from ALL my hEART!!! "Nasrun minAllah wah fatahun kareeb" Ay meray rub mujhay kamiyabi naseeb ferma. Ameen. Mujhay sabar ke talkeen ferma. Mujhay sabr sabr sabr ata ferma. Ya Allah!!! Tu raheem hai. Tu Kareem hai. Main baar baar teray der pe ati hoon. Is dafa mat khali haath bhajna. Ab ke baar kuch ziada hai yakeen hai app per. Apne imaan per. Jis ne ye rah dekhai. Jis ne is rah se milwaya un dono ko app ka roop manti hoon. Apni sub se aziz cheez ke sadqay kamiyabi ata ferma dain, ap ke sukar guzar hon gi. Help me Ameen Thanks in adavnce!

cycil     Sunday October 26, 2008

Dear God, Thank you for all the blessings and for answering prayers, and thank you for giving me clear mind that everything will be okay and there is nothing to worry about. Lord, my other graphic design job didn't literally lay me off, but they said they are going to have me stop going to work for a while because they can't afford to pay me for a while. Lord, the extra income I'm getting from that job makes a alot contribution to the bills we have to pay every month, but you know what Lord. I don't feel bad or that worried because I know you told me I will find the right replacement job on the right time. Lord, One job called me for interview and now I pray that I will get the job even just a part-time. It's so near to my house and I really do want to work there. Lord, please give me this job even just a part-time. Lord, my daughter will start her Ballet lesson today and the money I use is suppose to go to a bill, but I know my daughter will be happy to be in her Ballet lesson. Lord, I promise to be a good person and a worker if you please give me this job. Also lord i want to get this opportunity to thank you for keeping mg dad healthy. When we took him to the doctor it is such a blessing that you send him there, you avoided him to get some kind of stroke. Please keep him healthy and be with us for more years to come. We love him so much and we don't want to loose him.. And thank you also for giving us a great mother...

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amie     Saturday October 25, 2008

sometimes i come here to write letters to people reading on this site, hoping to remind them that someone loves them. and to stay focused and take a deep breath. but today, i need some of my own reminders. god, i remember the fear. i remember it so well actually, because i remember writing here to you when that fear gripped my soul just about a year ago. and this was a reminder that perhaps looking back fondly is only a good thing for a very brief period. we tend to forget the evils that occurred. we tend to forget how we felt. we tend to gloss over the entire bad experience till only the few good parts remain. and maybe our brains do that so our hearts can rest. but sometimes we get to comfortable with those rosy images and warm memories and start to think that maybe we want to be in that place again. forgetting the tears. forgetting the physical and mental breakdown. and forgetting that it was the second time i was learning that lesson, and that i couldn't do that to myself again. not for a third time. but here i am again, suddenly nostalgic. suddenly full of fuzzy memories clouding my vision and causing so so so much anxiety. god, i don't know what to do with my anxiety. i don't know how to handle it or where to put it. i see calm, normal people, and i wonder how they could be that way. aren't they constantly wondering what to do? aren't they constantly wondering about their lives and their futures i guess just me. sigh. i am so thankful i am remembering what that was like. so thankful this website exists and it helps so so much. i have a headache now from the cigarettes i consumed. and i should probably go to bed. thanks for listening.