Being alone

Tarissa Marie      
Sunday January 8, 2012

Dear God, I am not sure if i truley believe in you. although i know your there. i get lost sometimes and when i hurt i feel your not there to help me. my life sucks, there is not a day that goes by with out me wanting to comite suicde. Im lost and i need guidence, im sure you have been trying to help me with that but i dont think i am excepting it. I miss the group homes, and foster care a lot. i had peopel there to help me go thrugh hard times. they helped mewhen i wanted to cut. I just have one favor, please help my broters. i am not able to be there for them so they need you, please help them. thanks

MD      
Friday January 6, 2012

Dear God, I am sitting here reading other letters, realizing we are all searching for the same thing, love, happiness and approval. Please help me get through this life. I believe I just found happiness but her heart may still be with someone else. I've never loved anyone as much her, please give me a sign, if this love is worth following.... Thank you Amen

pld717      
Thursday January 5, 2012

Dear God today i feel sad because my Husband is not here with me and my kids we miss him so much :( but you know that him being in the ARMY is always going to be like this but some time i just feel like crying crying because i miss him so much. But i know that you are going to bring him back to us one of these day.<3 u.

LC      
Wednesday January 4, 2012

Papa, I've been told all frustrations are tied to spiritual matters. I'm not sure what it is that is bothering me. I'm sure it's a mix of frustrations. Being homesick especially since I wasn't able to make it home, stir crazy being stuck in the house not able to work because it's SLOW and waiting around for school to start back up and having to conserve my gas, I honestly feel like I'm in a huge struggle with myself to make it work here. I keep having to remind myself of why I'm here but none of it feels justified anymore. AAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH! I'm sure it's also partly this grey damn weather getting to me when I'm used to the sun shining every day even through winter, and missing people that have moved on from me. When will this struggle with myself end dammit?! I know I'm the one standing in my own damn way and that makes me even more so frustrated. The last strands of hope that I had are slowly tearing away. Please help me to see through all this muck I'm creating for myself! I'm desperately in need of some type of solace. All my love, LC

Avy      
Tuesday January 3, 2012

My Dear God, She's getting married soon. :( its not that im sad bcos she's getting married. Im sad/scared that i wouldnt be able to make any friends during her wedding day. Just imagine that i'll be sitting alone with all her model friends. Who am i next to all those beautiful ladies right? I know nobody there :( im afraid that i would look stupid during her wedding day. Just imagine them dancing all night while me?? Sitting alone :(( aww~~ :'( what do i do.. :'( pls bless me oh God so that i will be soo busy that night that i wouldnt have time to sit. Pls bless so that i wouldnt look stupid that night. Pls bless so that i will be able to join the crowd and be happy. Pls bless that i wouldnt even realised that time flies so fast that its time to go back. And most importantly, pls bless so that i would look georgeous that night. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

ME      
Friday December 30, 2011

Dear God, I am so very despondent. I was receiving what I thought were very good signs from You and that I would be saved. However, it did not happen. I have been holding on now to this awful existence because I was hopeful that you had saved my life once before for a reason. It does not appear to be the case. I cannot hold on any longer. This depression is overwhelming. If You are listening and You do intend to save me, it must be soon. Over eight years of this misery is too much to handle. Please do not abandon me. Amen.

Tank      
Monday December 26, 2011

Dear Man up stairs, I really don't know what to do anymore. Lately i feel like i have no one, but i always know your there fo me. I really dont understand what my purpose is in life. It just seems like im living day to day with nothing special really going on. I try to put on this fron that i dont feel lonley, but it really sucks. It seems like i really dont have any friends anymore ever since me and David broke up. Im not complaining saying everything is going wrong, it just that nothing seems to be going on at all. I thank you for everything youve done in my life and i pray that you continue to bless me. Bless me with a job or community service. Help me to figure out what im suppose to do in life and help me to live the life you have planned on for me. Lately i know that all ive been worried about is boys, and i dont want to be like that. I know you have the right guy out there for me and i just need to be patient. Bring patience in my life. I pray for my brother lord that he is safe. Even though he may not be living the life you have planned for him i know that you will never give up on him. I also pray for D that you help him with his life. He seems to have so much potential and hes wasting it on drugs and alcohol. Take these feelings of lonliness and unhappiness away from me and help me to live a life full of joy and happiness :)

no name sender      
Monday December 26, 2011

Dear God I'm not a real believer.. I even pray hardly ever but I really need someone in my life right now. Today it's Christmas.. I can't believe I'm doing that, I know you must have a lot of requests, probably much important that mine but I'm so lonely. I think I'm going insane because solitude is my only friend. I don't wanna be selfish and ask for something to you, I just wanna be happy and.. I need you in my life. I'm sorry because of everything, you know what I mean.. And I've been doubting a lot about your existence too.. I'm so desperate.. and so sorry. Help me living, God. I've been living watching others lives.. This is not living. I wanna have the strenght of getting my own life and doing something great with it. I need you to help me and be present in my life. Faith is a gift that I don't believe I was lucky enough to receive but if you would just give me a little sign, a little hope to go on.. Then please, please God.. help me. Now I just realized how selfish I was asking you all that. I didn't mean it.. I just really need what misses in my life.. A friend.. You. I don't wanna be like all the others, the ones who don't believe at all. I'm seeing that lots of people adore you while the other half just even make fun of you. I'm so confused and please forgive me for everything if you can. Happy birthday and thank you for listening to me.. With Love.. The hopeless stranger.